"It is easy to be arrogant in our desire to have what we think is best for us, rather than to trust God's perfect plan and be content with the things He has given us. In God's master plan, He has chosen not only to use us where we are, but also with the qualities that make us who we are. He created in us our personalities and our abilities, and we are uniquely special to Him. We need to give up our expectations of how life should be and become grateful to God for where we are and what we have."

I think maybe I just quote my whole book. Okay, maybe just 25% of it.. just kidding. sort of. It just amazes me how with each page I read I think, that's exactly what I needed to hear. And it happens over and over and over! I pick up a lot of random books at the store that I think look like they might be interesting. A lot of times they are really not good. But, I am so pleased with my selection on this one! I'm stressed out right now... I have a quiz tomorrow that I'm not really sure how to study for, and am not really that motivated to study for. In fact, that's probably what I should be doing while I wait. I am waiting here (im)patiently for Ft. Scott CC to finish looking at our product in the meat lab. I was told they'd be gone by 6:30 which realistically I doubted even when that claim was first made. But, I agreed. Afterall, it's part of the job and I would still be able to make it to church. I really felt like I needed to go to church tonight, I need a break and a chance to restore myself. But, I'm not going to get it. They don't appear to be leaving any time soon. Once they do I will have to put all of the product away, scrub the tables and then hose down the floors. I wish I'd worn my boots today... Doing the clean up alone will probably take 45 minutes or so. Because I am worried to leave it any less than perfect. I hope I get home by 10? In any event when I judged we often went to meat labs to practice (though during normal hours).. But, if I were judging I would want someone to stay to allow us the opportunity to look at product. I try to remember that I am paying back what I owe so to speak.

I know that what that passage was speaking of more longterm as opposed to right now in the moment implications. I don't know where I'm going, but this isn't where I intended. This was meant to be positive but seems to be a mixture of positive and negative. sigh.